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2008-12-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

ok bck from MY. kk dat trip is last minute one ok! i didnt wan to go de but my mum force me T.T hais... stayed over at my pop's fren house. his granddaughter was one hell of an annoying idiot. went genting not to stay but jus dat theme park ther...sat quite a few rides. some of dem were jus no use even though it was ther. like dat bloody pirate train thingy. supposed to be a haunted house den in de end go in onli 1 whole patch of darkness...well overall still ok lors..den i jus came back showered n use my precious com.hahas. nyway i hav nth else to say bb.

2008-12-18T20:00:00.002+08:00

okkkk..now back to posting past few days i chiong domo...dun noe nvm <_< hahas. concert was great..met great trombonist xDD from rssb. trombone rules !! (: lunch time- had a problem so we went out to eat. den had exchange sound check till 4 n had break till 5. 5 had dinner ( nasi lemak) till 6 n went to prepare for concert. play who will buy, steeps of kalmarr and among the clouds. den had combined concert after both bands played. played stand by me and selections from grease. 4got to mention~~ morning had rehearsal wif Dr Lee. well quite funny. wif him and his band donations.. $10 lols T.T .. day b4 ytd had band bbq.. i left early..b4 dey started eating xDD.. Jefferson! u get to eat more hahas. had a miniature amazing race ther. tiring but fun. chionged on bicycles all de way. rocks!! den i left at 6.30

2008-11-30T13:50:00.001+08:00

update time! hahas ok YJC concert= total dissapointment. hate to say it but serious it really sucked.next up was de concert at esplanade by SAF Band.nice i say nice. especially Cavetowns Cappadocia.woots.currently rotting...going to decompose fully soon.played gunz jus now wif ky and dw lols dey SPRAYED!!!!! wen i mean spray i mean holding 2 machine guns n shooting at me non stop. hahas. changed blogskin. old one sucked. band camp over. ytd was fun as we had games. i tio all de forfeit. hahas but nvm. nyway we were first to finish all de stations. yays to group 4. Nadia u shud hav been ther. really fun. ok nth else oredi bb people.

2008-11-03T15:24:00.000+08:00

ok back to blogging...nid to revive at least mah...past few days? nth jus gunz gunz gunz and more gunz...other den dat went out to watch Sinfonique'08 wif Hafiz, Charlotte and QianLing FH one...nice music...went through de booklet found some funny names...not wanting to offend nyone but seriously dem funny.....1st Sarah Jane.....reminded me of Sarah Paul....2nd Jonathan Pee....want to go toilet?...haha...ok i dun wana offend nyone ya...den almost every night go down talk at de bbq pit wif my neighbours..........dats it folks.....next Episode coming in another 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 days..................

2008-10-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

2dae kai xin si le.......haha morning went for band...as usual den after band went to hav lunch wif shi hui b4 rushing home to shower change n meet up wif ky jeff n hafiz...went to airport terminal 2 slacked there till bout 6 b4 going to eat dinner....den took 858 back to yishun......was planning on going to see alumni band but den since ky n jeff not going i went home straight.....hahas came back helped my mum type some stuff de boo here i am....nth really special happened 2dae so nth to blog==.....nyways HAPPY 14th TO JOHNSON OH CHONG SHEN....lol? haha ok bb

2008-10-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

haha 2dae last day of sch for de yr...like duh? haha...ok 2 dae slacked as usual...nyway im so gona miss de times i had wif 1A4'07 n 2A4'08...though not all of dem haha....btw 2dae had student vs teacher games...dun ask me i wasnt in it...mostly students win but some are won by de teachers...2mr band at 8am till 1pm...i so so so so so wan to go for band...love it....went to eat den went home played com n changed de games in my psp...went down to de gym as ordered by my mum...less den 5 minutes ltr she came down n call me go back up....cuz got tuition T.T wtf sia....ok nvm den after tuition came to aunt's house n tadaa? blogging lol....

2008-10-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

2dae= concert day....wadeva las....ok since its 12 am i shud say yesterday...played de 3 songs...morning reached sch 8.30 but i wasnt late we had to fall in at 8.30...charlotte didnt come...not usual...but cuz she had food poisoning went for our nice BRUNCH= breakfast X lunch...lol equation...4get dat yahss....went to admiralty sec, put our instruments in de holding room n went down to de canteen to wait for others...den played games..after dat had de exchange den it was dinner.....after dinner had de concert....8 plus left for sch n after dat went to mac wif kiwi,shi hui n jeff...den parted ways...came home read blogs n now post................mayb lunch X dinner=LUNNER? lol ok wadeva i got to do other stuff oredi......found de songs for de YJC concert except for Among The Clouds.................de rest r all ther........bb

2008-10-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

ok tok bout morning first...morning was crazy ok...went to sch had a normal sch day....had a teacher tok to us bout cyberwellness den is crim prevention tok by nee soon police post's Staff Sergeant John bout runners for loansharks mcka Ah Long den went for early recess... den chye ann n yexing bo lai so me n douglas had to act... make my normal sch day into a complicated one....rushed through....welll i did bad luhs....but wen i enter stage alot of people laugh LOL dey noe me mah lol my supporters jkjk.....derrick wong 4get his line but he was ok den mrs zafirah commented dat de replacements were better den de mains ==.....den play blackjack, dai di and bluff in class....yes wif poker cards......so after sch went for bandplay de same 3 songs....practiced on dem den mr choo came n took over... left at approx 6pm.... den shi hui keep calling me dukeso i chase after him n had cheayie saying dat i wore a skirt -__-... ok wadeva so went to eat den came home n BOO! now posting...nth else k bb

2008-10-09T21:38:00.001+08:00

ok short one....going off soon....now den i eating dinner==...ok wadeva haha...ok i jus hav something to say...I LOVE THE TIMES AFTER EXAM....lol...first time i used comp in 1-2 months? lol ok wadeva....^^ (everyone)results come out dun sad hor...i see everytime sure got people cry de...........so DUN cry.....LOL....(April Ang From 2A3) I HAVE HAD ENUF OF U U BLOODY BITCH...everytime got prob den come find me... u think u wad princess?if u think so den go tiao lao la...no one cares bout u lor...den think wad happy happy anyhow say zt wan spar wif me...u think i wun find out?pls come to ur senses la...zi si bao bu zu huo....rich den u think i scared u? like zt onli den come find me for his number...Last time oso lyk dat ask me for jason number...now again ask me for zt num....i handphone arh....i noe u r lar i not so cheap lyk u...wan noe go ask him urself...

2008-09-29T19:40:00.000+08:00

hey bck to post n to REVIVE my blog....dots....ok 3 day thing oso can post cuz really got nth to post lor.....sat nth happened as usual...since ther was no band...life can get really boring without it...not to mention....STRESSFUL....sunday was not quite de day as well though ther was no tuition as he took over wednesday...cuz he sunday got thing on not to mention my exam was on fri....ok den 2dae...same as oways la...monday wad cud we do....oh n dat ms lim took over our english class again i noe....WTF.....last week come tell us say maths exam coming next week but eng dat week la hor...crap u las.....n 2dae end of wen bell ring ms lim nv let us go off de...but alot jus dun care walk off....jia you i support u.....lols...lame ok nth else le bb....

hey...its not dat i dunno wana let go noe...u shud understand de feeling...can u jus understand mine for once?

2008-09-25T19:39:00.001+08:00

ok nv post for damn long ok....got banned from comp like duh its exam time....ok so ytd was art....had people hiding my brushes everywhere, so i had to borrow 1....ok weird....2dae was eng....was ok till april cried...zzz i noe...lame...like cuz her stead tot dat she stead wif zt....zzz den come find me to explain wtheck....how was i to noe hu her stead was....wad his hp num...zzz den she giv me his hp num den i sms lor...somehow i think some people jus really dun noe how to reply smses...1 example.....april stead....smsed him like 3 times n he still nv reply...wtf i noe.....n speaking of wich.....did something or rather said something to HER not april dun get it wrong....yes n ok...was supposed to be onli me n her noe den i dunno got some1 bside her den she oso noe le....diao...so i ask dat person to not tell nyone bout it...so im relieved ok....nth else to post...bb...

2008-09-20T08:24:00.000+08:00

dang it i cant stand it anymore...im really going out of my head...is dat true?dat u r with one of my best frens? or is it dat he is jus lying to me....i cant be sure....dis feeling....its really hurtful....i cant let go of u...makes me feel worse every minute....nyway...if its true den....u noe hu...u better make de relationship last LONG....n u didnt hav to sms me last night zzz...metres away n u sms me....asking me not to sms her...zzz i wasnt...n i dun wan u two's relationship to be last her last....1 wk....if u r jus lying den pls tell me...

2008-09-19T16:09:00.000+08:00

ok i giv up....shes attached oredi i think i shudent jus cling on...driving me nuts ok..nyway i wish u good luck in ur relationship...last long...back to sch stuff...ok 2dae was ok actually slightly better den ok...2dae de class gav me a "card" since my b-dae is tmr...ok wadeva...going for concert with kim yong, derrick, jefferson 2nite.... nth else le lor bb.....

u r attached oredi i wun cling on to u.....gd luck in ur relationship.....

2008-09-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

okkkk...short post haha....not dat sad yet nnot dat happy wither....im sad+happy...LOLS nth else lor 2dae nth happened sunday monday wad sch den home study study study LOR....ok bb

2008-09-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

sneaked the com...now my mum's out so i use..take this chance to post...happy birthday to nadia^^...still havta wait for mine== in a week LOLS...ok random...they quarreled.....fine i had nth else to post lar...ok dis morning was in my aunt's house....found de guts to tok to her...yea...she was online dis morning...cuz her parents were at work so she used de comp....n she changed link lols found it oredi haha....its easy to find people's blogs...jus go to de blog of the people dey are close too and wham ur link is ther...relinked her b4 this post n i gtg soon cuz my mum's coming bck and i hav to study...i dun wana let the comp get hot or else i will get found out...haixx....

i love you from the bottom of my heart...did u not feel it or r u jus ignoring me?its making me break into half....

2008-09-07T20:44:00.001+08:00

ok last day of holis 2mr its working time...hav ta stay bck tmr for r n j...ya LIT so yes props n rehearsals for actors...though onli 2 its a freaking nice scene lars....balcony scene....if u were thinking death scene den yes i had dat tot but i not producer nor director....haixx...got all de songs for FF7 Crisis Core...so if u wan den u can ask me...ok...dis sat will be nadia's b-dae so happy b-dae in advance...den after dat is jasmine's b-dae so happy b-dae too....as for mine...nah i dun wana mention...i wun be using comp from now on till after exams...u noe wad dat means...study study study study and more studying...2 dae had tuition as usual...though its a sunday...3 days a week arhhh....2 days chi and 1 da math...thks to math tuition my math improved....girl iloveyou u kidnapped my heart....but u didnt take me wif u...i noe u like some1 else..but i wun giv up on you....his dat softball player from ur class...haixx ok im so isolating myself from u....i hvnt been tagging u msging u or toking to u...ok fine bout time i returnded to emoing state....n I SERIOUSLY HATE DURIAN! 2wks ltr my b-dae...i wana invite u guys but my lao ma dun let...cuz of my family things...haixx ok bck to emo bb...

2008-09-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

ok 2dae went for band...was lucky i went there and dey jua fall in so im safe...ok so she didnt come for band 2dae...yes she was sick...dun ask me how i noe...go blog see one....==was like practically unhappy there...not band but bcuz she wasnt there...wei chuen didnt come too...sick too...ok so 2dae last day of band till 13 oct...n 17 oct is our concert...sec 1 n 2...i wonder if wei chuen can catch up...arh n finally...both changed trombones...saf to tenor and wei chuen to bass...hope he can get used to it fast...will help in de yjc concert...saw dat she wasnt online this 2 days until 2dae...saw her come online jus now wen me hafiz kimyong derrick shihui and peck joon were in mac...free internet...ya think?..but it wasnt my msn it was hafiz...but i didnt tok to her...was gona go isolate myself from her mayb until exam break ends?...not studies but bcuz i think this way...it may make her...depressed n den ltr she cant concentrate on studying wif all these things in her mind...oh well...wad to do?n ytd was de 1 mth dat i hv tok to her through fone...ya get wad i mean...through text not tok...wad else?oh ya 2dae did a new piece...majestia...fun and cool piece i love it its nice...its for de yjc concert...extra piece but i like it fun n cool...nth else oredi?bb

2008-09-05T22:27:00.001+08:00

crap.....i didnt noe sean had a blog== until i saw it in his msn...haha...yes im lame...== like y in de world m i still doing here...ooops...suppose to go sleep le...post finish den go lar...now 10.25 pm on my clock le...i noe its early to some but i hav n i do sleep by 10pm...=='' ok 2dae went tuition for 2 hrs...was supposed to be 1 n a 1/2...den cuz dat time i nv go 2 lesson den hav to add add add...i nv pon hor...1 time is i sick second time is teacher fall down den injured his leg....so cant hav tuition...SADLY...its fun ther lar...ok its maths tuition if u were wondering...didnt tok much 2dae...on de fone...u noe wad i mean....ok fine...2mr thers band....no marching tmr cuz mr tan wans to rehearse us...running? hope there isnt...its gona kill me arhhh......mayb i shud a count down...or not==...bought this new book "FireFight" jus started reading it...storyline is nice...love it!!!!!!!!!!....ok todae marks de 1 month dat i didnt tok to her through fone== lol i counted yes..was dat suppose to be corny?oh noooooooooooo.... okkkkkkkkkkkk bout time i ended my post bb...

2008-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

arh ok HAPPY BIRTHDAY DERRICK....yes its derricks b-dae....dun ask....ok 2dae was ok yet not so ok...yes so de others b-dae are all coming up...lets see....13th will be nadia's....den next wud be mine...20th......den is jasmine b-dae on de 24th....n last is zt on de 27th...n of all people i had to be playing different parts from my section...as in not onli de notes...but de rythms...2dae wasnt dat happy...haixx...not gona mention nything...ok went to sch found out my psp was in my bag...==didnt play it...i vey guai de...den fall in n had 2 mins to go cds...went n set up instrument settle down....play de yjc concert pieces...WEI CHUEN u HAVE to catch up...u didnt come 2dae..==yes SAF can play better den u....like y wudnt de singapore armed forces lol....n safirah if u r reading this den u shud work harder...play like SAF...had a bad day 2dae...n safirah, dun act ignorance....i really hate it wen u do...pisses me off BIG time...so if u do continue like dat den dun blame me if i do scold u...ok 17 days left...yet i dun bother...lyk y? ok yes im weird...so if u wana noe...n i dun wana tell u den dun force ur way...ok fine im stopping here bb

2008-09-02T20:00:00.001+08:00

Yes..my blog song is instrumental...if u hate it n aint from band...den u can jus mute ur speakers...u dun nida hear it...wth...yes de beggining is lame...wait till u hear de middle...u will love it....lols...ok 2dae was slightly special...for de first time ever i had math tuition for 2 n a half hrs....wich was darn long.....though i enjoyed it...ok lame....cher made tea for me...damn nice...had diff flavours...den now in aunt's house posting lor wad else?...ok counting down 18 days....my big day but im sure no one will remember it...== nvm im used to it every yr since p3 cept last yr no one actually wished me happy b-dae lor....haixx....this yr will be no different...ok ending it here

2008-09-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

ok 2 dae nth much... gladys was unhappy so i cheered her up.....not outisde...but through msn lols....ok den some1 n u noe hu quarreled den i lyk whathefcuk...............lols den nth le

2008-08-31T20:52:00.001+08:00

short post again...lol jus now post nth....ok so jus now had tuition...dats it lor...bb

2008-08-31T12:37:00.000+08:00

oooooooooook hav to post if not my blog will go dead so time to REVIVE my blog LOLS
k so she not leaving happy....lyk scared half de life out of me....lols haha...k so ytd went for band did marching...was funning...we had to do marching correctly lyk 1 group at a time....den like if one group get correct den de whole band no nid to do pumping...den lyk i in de last group so wth STRESS!!! did 10 de first time n 20 de next so de last chance came...wrong den 30...den march until left de last group......den did it....CORRECT! so its lyk happy LORS....den marched a while more n went to practice...mr tan came...lols back from Canada...den went for lunch at 12.30 n came back at 1.30 for more practice...did sightreading pieces....gratz to de sec ones u guys sight-readed Amazing Grace...lols sec 2 played mr tan said not bad den sec 3 n 4 played mr tan say gd den sec 1 play mr tan bery happy cuz dey can sight-read lols....ok den listened to piccolo march recording...damn nice...btw 4got to mention...sec 1 n 2 concert postponed to 17 oct...bcuz amiralty sec say cuz of n lvl but 17 oct is O lvl....very smart hor...lols...ok enough of it...ok so todae since its just noon of course nth happened lar....somemore 2dae sunday no sch...lols 2mr hav to go bck sch giv mr chua de pledge card haha ok ending here bb

2008-08-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

haixx 2dae was rotting at home....cuz i was sick so i didnt go for band...morning went to see de doctor. i hav cough and flu. arhg really gonna kill me... ok den came home around 2 plus cuz my mum had to go do things...so i like wth freaking boring.....now in aunt's house posting...haixx...she wans to transfer...WHY?! i really hope she doesnt...its seriously gonna make me wana go _ _ _.. i wana _ _ _ my heart out... to me its like takingmy whole life away...n dat really sucks...arhhhggg...some1 do me a favor n let me SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT at u...im freaking sad luhs...ok gtg if not i will kena a LOUD LOUD scolding...

dun transfer pls...

2008-08-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

short post ok my mum gona be home soon hahas.....ok 2dae nth much cept dat JEFFERSON broad casted hu i like in class wich was OMTIANs......ok so i bcame like angry?:( so after sch de 2 juniors had their test n den had sectionals....sectionals was fun cuz everyone play....but Saf made me f_____ angry lor....nvm sec 1 i forgive even though i mentioned it like bout more den 10 times lor.....ok nth else le buais

2008-08-16T19:26:00.000+08:00

post post post post post ok wadeva posting a short one todae.....band was fun had running 2dae...n Amirul had to call me to de front wad sia....nvm after dat set up instrument n warm up had lunch at approx 11.15 den band ended at 2 for some reason....went to buddy and slacked wif kim yong, jefferson, shi hui, junhao, hafiz, marcus,peck joon......den went off to a void deck to play de BASS CLARINET LOLS.....ok so halfway through jeff went home den me, kim yong and shi hui went to eat den went home now post lor k bb

2008-08-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

hahas ok so 2dae was not so bad...?lols ok i made a new fren her name is krystal hahaha.....nth else le bb

2008-08-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

at dreamworld
Griffith University
Wai Keong on his euphonium
Amirul on my bass trombone
Sky at Surfer's Paradise

memories during this period 4th-12th June

2008-08-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

i think i made her angry n i seriously am thinking how........was it wad i said or wad?im sori if u got angry over it......ending my emo post here....byes

2008-08-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

wad sia.........i think i made her angry._. i not in de mood le......arhhhhhhhhhhh! some1 help me..........ok i changed my phone to W760i....my first sliding type fone lor.....nth else le lors sianzz.....hav to search for lit project songs.........aiya i gtg le bb

2008-08-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

ok posting a short one 2dae nth much happened cept dat 1 got 1 hr SIP......tmr got performance le
nyway i onli hav 2 hrs of com a week sianz....ok nth else oredi bb.....ILY _ _ _ _......

2008-08-05T19:58:00.000+08:00

okok gona post a short one.....wtheck.....i gtg soon nyway.....wadeva lars.........now freaking emoishhh......n i freaking cant do a single thing bout it....arhhhggg....wtheck i really wana call her talk but jus cant.......her fone got confiscated n i hadnt tok to her like in 2-3 weeks le..............but its like everyday i check my fone to see how long its like 2 weeks plus but like 10 yrs like dat lor......cuz of her fone** her parents confiscate her fone den cant tok to her so now freaking emoish n unhappy lars......ok i seriously wan to call her....but no guts.....its like dis few days.....alot of people around me seems to hav changed.....but more likely dat i hav changed....people starting to look as if dey change yet its me...n i hate myself for it....y was i even here in de first place....if i wasnt here nth bad wud happen.....she wudnt be so depressed....i shud hav stayed in YCKSS......she didnt go to yckss but she went to opss....ther i had frens but here im nth more den an idiot wif low iq to SOMEONE in my class.......i wana go kill myself.....dat day i slash myself.....wif a metal ruler not once but many times....freaking depressed lar ok so dun bother and if i scold nyone for nth blame me n tell me i will apologise

2008-08-04T17:24:00.000+08:00

okkkkkkkkkk......im gona post fast onli hav 5 mins....so 2dae got freaking pissed off......english period arhhh......yasser take my highlighter go put on jefferson table.....den after dat jefferson took one of my highlighter.....so i go ther to take bck lor but jefferson say not wif him...i trusted him lor den walked bck den suddenly jeff and kim yong laugh den i noe le lor is both of dem take lor so i go ther to take teacher scold me so i say dat dey take my highlighter lor dey got scolded lor....after sch i eating wif dem den ferline and her came.....n he told dem dat i made dem kena scolding from de teacher but dey nv think.....if dey hadnt taken my highlighter...dey wudnt hav gotten de scolding....yet dey blame it all on me.....so dey mean dat dey are not in de wrong n im always in de wrong....pls use ur brains.....u guys arent charlie for goodness sake u guys hav an iq of 100+ so dun act as if ur iq is 68 and dun be so childish can jefferson? ok so during lit period very pain lar......kim yong and derrick down ther punch me den i tank like 100+ punches? but so freaking pain larss......ok nth else le bb......ily _ _ _ _

2008-08-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

arh wad de hell................wad de heck is wif me dis days........im freaking moody......i scream at people easily.....n i freaking like do not giv a damn.....ok guys if i shouted at u for no freaking reason den hate me.....hate me all u wan....no1 givs a damn nyway...neither do i care....i nid a break seriously...everyone throwing insults....its jus too much....i cant take it nymore.....in class thers ball....in band i hear babibolla...wad de heck....n during tuition my teacher had to insist dat i purposely did not do his work....i wana leave....i wana end my suffering...no one cares....cept my parents...but my mum wud onli be too happy if i wasnt born...if i werent born....everyone in class wud be happy...my parents wud be happy....de band members wud be happy dat ther isnt dis trombonist hu goes around cowing....my section wud be happy dat ther wasnt dis idiotic,annoying person in de section...hu wans to care...no one....im needed by no one....if i leave.....ther wun be arguing in class.....everyone wud be happy....if onli i werent born....im pissed im stressed up.......im jus an invisible guy in everyone's eye.....if i werent born....she wudnt be so stressed up.....even wen im stress or nything....people cant be bothered....my limit has been reached a long time ago.......way b4 i even bcame a musician in OPWO......n now thers dis group of people in band dat is going to make me way worse den now....if dis continues.....i might as well quit band....mayb worse... i shud go transfer sch so no one will get irritated in class.....no one cowing in band.....no teacher teaching me gets extra burdens.......she will be much better.....n no one making me suffer........

2008-08-01T19:14:00.000+08:00

FREAKING HELL I DUN CARE WAD HAPPENS IM JUST GONA THROW ALL MY FEELINGS HERE......IM FREAKING STRESS AND PISSED.....i cant take it anymore.....in sch so many things happen....things dat will affect me negatively.......u guys dun giv a shit to my feelings......u dun giv a damn how im feeling now....if u see dis post de next day de whole world will noe.....JUST BECAUSE U THINK U ARE NOT IN DE WRONG.....so wad u r taller....it doesnt mean u r my father nor my mother......im already tolerating....it doesnt mean dat once de matter's settled i dun giv a damn.....like de wise old saying...."the naive forgive and forget,the wise forgive but do not forget".......time and time again i forgive u guys jus because u guys are my frens....but dat freaking does not mean u can jus continue doing wad u guys are doing........i had enough of all ur trippings.....i had enough of all ur name callings......i had enough of u guys talking crap bout me behind my back.........i noe my attitude is bad.....but pls u guys hav known me for how long.....1 and a half yrs.....its a long period of time.....u guys shud b well aware dat i hate dis kind of things.....i told u time and again....yet u guys do not wan to care.......u guys say dat i dun listen to advice dat u guys tell me.....but do u listen to wad i say......u hate people to trip u.......yet u trip me.......u dun like people to call u names......yet u call me names........i reached my limit.......u guys hav limits too but u tink as if i hav no limits........-don-

im freaking stress dis few days ok.....its been a week since i last smsed or talked to her.....yet all this time it seemed like forever.....sometimes i wonder....do u hate me or not.......

2008-07-31T21:27:00.000+08:00

since i hav de time y not....ok so now posting since i cud post lars........2dae nth much happened cept dat morning pe period had health checkup......ok was fine till de nurse ask me take off my pe shirt i was like WAD THE HELL!....den cant do nything cuz nurse wad.....sch will kill me if i dun lor....so no choice take off lor....budden girls oso hav to take off their cloths LOL....NOT KIDDING im serious LOL.....ok den after dat went for recess....GOT SABOTAGED by dat guy in my hates......ok den jefferson ask me to follow him go find mr chua but was nowhere to be found in de end went back to class for maths period......den after was english period....had class photo taking...was still ok lars......den had art...ms toh leaving le SAD LARS......ok nvm dat we got dis new teacher coming to teach us she came in 2dae too......Gratz to Derrick for getting highest in art in de whole level.....Derrick Chua not Derrick Wong.......ok den after class had dis "photo taking session" LOLS.......ok nvm dat so now i hav time to post lors.....OK gtg le if not will kena scolded le.....BYESSS

2008-07-31T16:16:00.000+08:00

Ok ytd was POC(passing over ceromony).....people cried some happy but most importantly u guys wan to noe hu got de post rite.....Ok start wif sl woodwinds first ok.....2008-2009....Clarinet Section:Elizabeth.....Flute Section:Nadia.....Oboe Section:Alvin......Bassoon Section:Jason......Bass Clarinet Section:KimYong.....Saxophone Section:Nadzirah.......no more for woodwinds now for Brass Ensemble....Cornet Section:Nadirah.......Euphonium Section:Zong Quan........French Horn Section:Hui Ling.....Trombone Section<3(my section):Charlotte and Amirul...rock on ya....Tuba Section:Gary......end of Brass ensemble.....Strings Section:Siti.......Percussion:Fayyad and Grace the couple....sweet rite........dun wan to post bout committee cuz i forget but i can remember de QMs.....Ok Woodwinds QM:Peiwen.......Brass QM:HuiLing.....Percussion QM:Grace.......ok now to de 4 most important post in de band....DM,ADM,CM and AO.......shall start from AO.......AO:Charlotte.........CM:Rasul....fyi hes our 2007/2008 DM......ADM:Jason.......DM:Amirul......*CLAP CLAP* Gratz to all SLs and committee members.....and most CONGRATULATED is to Amirul,Jason,Rasul and Charlotte.........gratz to de sec2 SLs(KimYong and Nadia).......ok posting at night if i can byesss

2008-07-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

OKKKK!! so i edit de survey thingy n done 2dae didnt go sch cuz i suddenly kena fever den now ok le got an mc too from a doctor I NV BUY MC lol......doctor giv one......so went for tuition jus now den now at home at fish porridge dat my mum made hadnt eat her fish porridge in like more den 6 yrs oredi so nice......ok nth else happened 2dae so im gona end my post here byesss

2008-07-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Dont read the questions till you named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose 10 people to do it.
1.Lynn
2.Jefferson
3.Hafiz
4. Kent
5. Amirul
6. Nadia
7. Yingjie
8. Bird
9. Syaza
10.KimYong
11.Micheal
12. Rasul
13. Derrick Chua
14. Juthaporn
15. Douglas
16. Jasmine
17. Fayyad
18.Yazid
19.June
20.Justin
How did you meet 14?
Thru my OPSS life..
What would you do if you never met 1?
Erm bang de wall
What if, 9 & 20 dated?
NONONO!! they dunno each other
Will 6 & 7 date?
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!never lol they aint lesbian
Describe 3?
Brother!
Is 8 attractive?
bird ehx..? must ask amirul..hahas
Describe 7?
YingJie?....Zwinds Trombonist
Know any of 12's family members?
Nope
What will you do if 18 broke up?
he doesnt hv a gf
What language does 15 speaks?
LOLS~! english and chinese lor
Who is 9 going out with?Dunno
How old is 16?13+ going 14
When was the last time you spoke to 13?
This afternoon
Who is no.2 Fave band/singer?jefferson?OPWO
Will you ever like 4?
no i aint homo
Will you ever date 1?
YES! but she doesnt like me.....
what's 10 surname?
Teo
Would you ever be in relationship with 11?
pls im not a transexual homo or nything gay u can think of
What is the school of 3?
wich sch?SS?OPSS now currently is Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Where does 6 lives?
Dunno
Favourite thing bout 5?Drawing mayb or playing his trombone
Now sabotage 10 people to do this survey!
Jefferson,Hafiz,Derrick,Douglas,Lynn,Nadia,June,Justin,Sijia,Safirah

2008-07-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

2dae nth much happened.....ytd oso nth much.....supposed to go gym wif jeff dey alll but in de end i lazy so nv go lor.................PaI SEH arh i really dun feel like going aiyo now posting with my dad's laptop hahaha.....since i hav de time.......I WAN TO WATCH THE DARK KNIGHT.....but freaking hav no time to go cuz i hav schwork...tuition work.....den my mum wan me to study even use com...play xbox....play psp oso cannot not to mention go out and watch movie...somemore i no more money le sad case......cuz i nid to shen until end of dis week....aiya dun care one day i try go watch lar.....mayb end of de month i go watch money not enough 2 wif jeff dey all lars.....seriously no time to go lolsssss.......ok so "someone" said im bully de hell out of my bully but i aint.....sad case.....nvm laaasss i REN....if not i really will go hyper and not happy but angry LOL.......den wei chuen doesnt read his notes carefully how to sightread sia but its ok since he still sec one.......i nida learn to sightread fast if not sure die de got harder songs coming up.....de first song im ever sightreading as in really......is Majulah Singapura LOL.......i noe lame but seriously sec 2 sec 3 hav to perform den after dat sec 1 sec 2 combined concert.....omg my hectic schdule...LOLS.....really alot of things....lucky no alla marziale dis yr...if not its gona be even worse for me n all de competitions are over oredi....SYF....NBC....SCIBF.....SIBF....all done....nth else dis yr....seems like ther wun b nymore competitions until next yr la.....so so wait wait wait but competition so fun but at de same time nervous i scared de results lar of course....like hu wudnt be nervous of de results....if he were......HE/SHE is HEARTLESS......no emotions at all lol....aiyo....next yr SYF i wonder wich song we playing but we hv to work hard for dat song or else we wun get a good result.....OK ending my post here or else mum will scold me haha she scolded me le.....

2008-07-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

SIBF Results

Division I
1
Ngee Ann Polytechnic Concert Band-Bronze
77.71
2
Raffles Girls' School Symphonic Band-Silver
82.00
3
NIE Youth Symphonic Band-Bronze
74.14
4
Raffles Institution Military Band-Silver
82.00
5
Philharmonic Youth Winds-Gold
93.43

6
Republic Polytechnic Wind Symphony-Silver
83.14
7
Tampines Wind Ensemble-Bronze
74.43
8
Sembawang Symphonic Winds-Bronze
78.71
9
Orchid Park Wind Orchestra-Silver
80.57

NBC Results
1st Division

1
Orchid Park Secondary School-Silver
78,83
2
Temasek Polytechnic -Gold
83.50
3
Millenia Institute-Silver
77.33
4
Tanjong Katong Girls' School-Gold
83.33
5
Chung Cheng High (Main) School-Silver
79.17

n dats bout it for de results

2008-07-26T20:23:00.001+08:00

The Strings Ensemble

The Percussion Ensemble

The Woodwind Ensemble

The Brass Ensemble(Look For me....lol....lame)

so 2dae went for band it was half day 2dae cuz had dis overseas conductor hu came to teach conduct help us or wadeva it may be....it was fun....she lauged....she smiled....everything was ok till she started to emo............ i saw so sad den i like wan to go over ask y she so sad but its like in de middle of de session wif mr johnson and dat it wud make things like so much worse....i really wanted to help her but seriously i cudnt help in any way de worse thing is dat she starts ignoring me or cry.....i dunno nything bad like dat to happen.....n cuz of ** my onli form of communication wif her is like totally gone....as in really gone for now....its been like 5 days onli but its seems like forever.....yes im not kidding so u no need to ask me......i wan to jump arhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............freaking stress...............................freaking pissedddddddddddddddd...............................................................................................n nth seems to work out for me............isiit jus my misfortune or does people delibrately wan to do it.....i seriously hate it to de core.......its not in de lest funny at all........bck to band.....ok so i did ok 2dae....for blue sky since we r not plaing it nymore.......ok so thers gona be a performance involving jus de sec 2 and sec 3......n in september it will be jus a sec 1 and sec 2 combined performance....sec 2s hv to lead....bout time i started to do things dat will help n not irritate......i wonder wad song we are gona play.....mr tan says de songs are like last yrs alla marziale songs... grade 3-5 round ther?....ya lucky sec 3s can help....if not i seriously will not noe how to teach de section wif huijia....mayb i better let her take safirah n i take wei chuen cuz safirah drives me to my nerves....well sometimes she does.......ok settled......so 2dae i went to play lan at de lan shop wif kimyong and shihui........my motive......first priority to drown all de freaking sorrows i hav.....2)shihui nids help......3)Our class nids a mage.....4)john wans me to continue cabal........ok so im starting to find cabal lame.....for some reason i think its cuz during de holidays b4 aus trip i hv been chionging too much of cabal n bcame sian of it.........n 2mr my mums coming back so i wun be posting for a while again and yes im restricted from de comp.....n i will nv forgive dat person...y does he hav to interfere wif wadeva i do....its like pls lar its not ur problem y do u nid to care........n somemore pls u noe dat he doesnt like people to copy him yet u tell me dat we nid blader......u r a totally changed person.....i do not noe u nymore......ur attitude totally changed since u started wif *her*......u gav all sorts of attitude....u scold for no apparant reason and u totally dun giv a damn to others feelings.....u follow people n bully cuz u too hum to bully on ur own....y scared kena beating arh?....to _ _ _ _....i told u dun stay too close to him....u dun wana listen....after wad he did to u u still dun care?.....hes an addict u noe...drinking cough medicine wif coke.....dis is not a funny matter and so i nv lied in any single one of my words here....if nyone tells u dat im lying tell me i will explain it to u personally....if u still dun believe den not my problem oredi......cuz u choose not to believe me n trust dat he will not do such a thing but im telling u its true...... i dun wan u to get hurt nymore.....i dun wana see u cry nymore......

2008-07-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

ytd was de big day.....aka SIBF day...went to sch had 1 period of lesson....was pe....like dat might as well dun go for lesson.....played badminton wif my hand pain....dun giv a damn my hand pain oso no one will noe...im jus an invisible guy in others eyes...nth more den trash.....den went for band at 10.....but bcuz i nv ask permission i went down on pumping position for like how long?dunno didnt count.....den had sectional.....cuz i ate le....den had rehearsal wif mr tan till 12 n had lunch till 1.....changed into half uni....did de whole performance once......changed into full uni.....den fall in after packing and went off like lol sch ended oredi.....den i wana slap dat fcking 1b2 girl....our uniform very nice to laugh at isit....we play musical instruments very funny isit....at lest we hav one more skill den u....de art of playing a musical instrument.....so short still wan to compare.....i taller den u......even though im de shortest guy in band.....performed at 3+4+ den went bck to sch took some pictures.....den kept de instruments but my instruments showered....in de rain so cleaned it dry den went to take formal photos for de canteen board ther.... den went off we were going bck to hear de results...den wen we were on de bus found out we had to reach by 830......ate at NP food court den took de bus....took two wrong bus.....finally reach trcc den we go in found dat we cannot enter till de comp finishes at 10....went in at 10 den waited n waited....she was freaking cold but yet i cudnt do nything again.....4 occurences proves dat im useless....she cried in de morning too......i seriously cant take dis nymore...i really wan to go up to de roof n jump now.....wen de results were announced...i was freaking dissapointed we got a silver....80.37%....if i did better we cud hav been de top 3 band in division 1.....its all my fault....reached my godbro house at round 11+......den showered and sleeped at 12....
2dae jefferson didnt come to sch i wonder y.....den after dat stayed back for fun.....found dat i didnt bring my wallet wif me......den i borrowed 2 dollars from my frens.....went to mrt station de ride cost 2.10 wth 10cent diff but no choice so i called my uncle to pick me up....den went to collect my lugguage n went to my aunt house.....den now blog....freaking sad me wans to end my painful lyfe as soon as possible...i cant bear it nymore its too much for me 2 handle im not an adult im only 14 n all de problems dat i face covers more den wad my parents face.......wth some1 kill me i dun wana live nymore

2008-07-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

freaking moody now ok.............2dae as usual went for sch time den band.......7+den finish.......john was scolded.... n she cried..............since yijun dey all ther it was best dat i left her alone....i did but felt so freaking helpless useless.......i oso wanted to cry(guys do cry at times)......now feeling freaking helpless.......if i had 3 wishes this wud b it.....1)to be wif her 2)play my trombone better 3)to love her forever.................so found out sumtin 2dae.....sec 1 are going to join wif de sec 2's for a concert dat is gona be held in september.....i wonder wich dat....hope its not on my b-dae.....some1....nyone.....kill me im nth more den a dog to some of u........now im blogging wif a burdened heart n hav nth else to be happy bout.....she seems angry cuz of me.....i wonder whether anot she is....i hope she is not.....nth else to blog

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIJIA........

2008-07-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

bck to post ok so im gona kop some pics^^....was ytd's pictures ytd had no time now now i post it

minqi and me...lol i look toot wadeva larss.....>^^

Okkkkk...so 2dae went for sch den band after sch cuz SIBF is on thurs 2 DAYS LTR ONLY so short.....thurs sure happy cuz 10 oclock muz can leave class le so thurs on pe 1 period^^.......

den spent $13 on a taxi fare for nth cuz i tot my band t at home......nyway i oso hav to take my maths book n dnt oso lar.........ps 4get to say 2dae mr kt lim freaking annoying.....de drawing so big oredi how big u wan?A3 size big enough?......or u wan cardboard size big?

so 2dae she nv reply my sms for dunno wad reason?....lol....den in sch i see her like so angry/sad....den i felt so helpless cudnt even help her.....isit jus bcuz i didnt hav de guts or was it dat i didnt wan to annoy her.....im useless....cudnt even help her...dun even noe if im de one causing her stress.....kill me......i dun wana be so useless...no one is indispensable in dis world....de band wun go down becuz of me......im jus a useless 13+ yr old guy hu is jus irritating to others.....

_ _ _ _...im sorry...even in aus i made her cry unintentionally....im so useless

2008-07-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

found this on some1's blog so decided to do it cuz i sian and tired
Have you ever called a person useless?
No,cause i am.

What object in your room is really important to you?
MY HANDPHONE

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
okok

Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
NV

Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
Yeah.

When is the last time you talked to an ex?
i dun hav a gf

What was the 10th text in your inbox say?
huh wad u mean?

Where is the last place you went to go eat?
home

Have you bought any clothing items in the past week?
no didnt go out except sch

Do you live near your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
refer tode ex question above

If you had to sleep with one of your teachers from high school, who would it be?
lol no one if possible?

Do you sing in the shower?
nope....

Where is the last place you went shopping?
J8

Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
NO^^

What kind of car does your sibling drive?
no siblings cept for step if u mean

What kind of car do you drive?
I cant drive underage....

Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
no cuz i hav some1 i like

How old will you be in 8 months?
14.

Do you prefer a call or a text?
texts

Did you enjoy your last kiss?
from my mum?lol idk

Have you ever been on television?
no

How many cities/towns have you lived in?
1?

Do your parents drink coffee every morning?
father does mum doesnt

Do you think you'd be good enough to commit a crime and get away with it?
No

Are you wearing any jewelry?
none

Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
singapore river counted?

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yeah......her

Have you ever thought about getting your tongue pierced?
nv

Does a kiss make you feel better?
depends

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
not once

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
When i get in.

What did you do today?
Study,band

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
yes

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
NO.pls refer to de question above

Have you ever thought about your death?
Yeah.was not nice

Ever been in love?
YES....her

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
permanent

What is your favorite sport?
BB?

What color is your shower curtain?
Dun have

Have you ever had a fist-fight ?
No.

Did you believe in love at first sight?
yea?

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
yea like stupid question much?

Lyrics stuck in your head?
yea

Do you like red or black?
Both are liked

What are you doing tomorrow?
School/band.

Who was the last person you can't get your eyes off ?
her definitely

Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
no chance

Have you ever run over an animal?
Insect,yes. Animal,no.

What is your favorite cereal?
no particular fav but if u insist come ask me

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
nooooo....i hate peanut butter

What are you doing right at this moment?
Chatting on msn and blogging

Choose 5 people to do this quiz:
1)Hafiz
2)Lynn
3)Nadia
4)Kent
5)June

2008-07-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

so freaking sad luhs
she wan to commit dat day....
y lehs?
cuz of some1
.....
now dunno wad to do or say
nth to blog...tell me wad to blog luhs
i seriously aint got nything to blog on
ok so admit i cried after nbc after de results
in the bus
and im still freaking stress,sad,unhappy anything unhappy u can think of
so i beg u guys some1 jus kill me
i seriously hv to chiong wind blew....
i nida take a breath almost every 1 n a half bars
during de last part bar 268 band members will noe wad i mean
ok dat part de triplets are freaking constant for me to no wher to breath but lucky bass line playing same thing so i can breath if not i wonder how to last dat many bars without breathing
wadeva lar.....i oso hav blue sky to worry bout...
n now a sore throat had to happen
dis is freaking bad SIBF is dis thurs n i hope i recover by den if not
how am i suppose to play my trombone...
now throat veri de pain lar....
cant really talk but lest i dun hav broken fingers if not cant sms,blog,msn
omg if dat happens i dunno wad to do
n i oso hav a fever dat came in a package
y muz giv me a family pack of illnesses
ok so tmr i wearing traditional clothes...................
dun xiang wai.....
its jus traditional opss uniform larssss......
so now waiting n waiting for some1 to reply
no shud say some2 to reply........wadeva ending here for 2dae

2008-07-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

so now freakin sad ;uhs dun ask me y.......i dun wana say nything lor...................cuz its gona remind me of it n now oredi like wth lar...dun ever mention a word of it to me ok...........................2dae band was ok had rehearsal in de morning as usual..........den went for lunch....came bck den went for sectionals.....230 went to find rasul to hav an ensemble rehearsal...ok den packed up but woodwinds havent finish so we wait den raining.....lucky gary's father sent me home THKS.......lol....hav been blogsurfing since 8+ den now 10+ le i think nid to sleep le but den i wan to wait for her to sleep first......bu an xin lor.........nth else le......so jefferson didnt come for band in de morning but came after lunch time so verry de funny lohs......

if u(u noe hu u r) r reading dis post n is sleepy.........gdnite sweetdreams<3

iloveu

2008-07-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

so 2dae cuz of tuition didnt go for de history proj meeting....i cudent send de file cuz it was too big...ok so i had a quarral wif jefferson.....he doesnt trust me wadeva lar...i nid to go soon....
so jus posting a short one for the blog to not go dead

2008-07-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

1) What do you think an ideal best friend would be?Friendly person and more
2) If you can have 3 dreams, what would they be?her, grow taller,and excel.
3) Do you believe in God?i think so
.4) What would you do with a billion dollars?donate,share and treat my frens:)
5) Do you like this quiz?definately not
6) Which is more blessed? Being loved or loving someone?being loved
7) Can you whistle?yes...
8) Is there anything that made you extremely happy?err....her?
9) Do you believe in ghosts?i think so...
10) If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?emo de whole day
11) How do you see yourself in 10 years' time?dunno cant see the future
12) Who are currently the most important people to you?mum dad OPWO and her
13) What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?Kind
14) Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?married and rich. XD
15) What's the first thing you do when you wake up?Check the time and see whether i'm late for school. -.-
16) How does your favourite shampoo smell like?Ermm. the shampooy
17) How would you rate the perfection of your life right now?3...im freaking stress
18) What do you want to do right now?Sleep.
19) 10 people you wanna tag:whoever

2008-07-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

since i hav time now and nadia asked me y not i shall do de quiz

1.The person who tagged you is?
Nadia, band fren and schoolmate:)

2.What is your relationship with him/her?
Friends,bandmates,schoolmates

3.Your 5 impressions of him/her?
-kind
-caring
-smart
-good fren
-good flautist

4.The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
so far nothing....came to the band and sch starting of this yr.....

5.If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
lol....i dun like her and i like some1 else lol?

6.If he/she becomes your lover, what does he/she need to improve on?
just said it i dun like her in the first place

7.If he/she becomes your enermy,you will?
Ask her to be frens again?

8.If he/she becomes your enermy, the will be?
erm...i talk too much n im irritating?

9.What is the thing you want to do most for him/her now?
dunno?lol

10.Your overall impression of him/her?
a good fren

11. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
irritating?

12. The character you love of yourself?
dunno?

13. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself?
irritating,idoitic

14.The most ideal person you want to be is?
dunno

15. For the people who cares & likes you, say something about them.
THANKS SO MUCH!

16Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1)Derrick
2)YueTing
3)Kent
4)Fayyad
5)Minqi
6)Justin
7)June
8)Yi Jun
9)Tanya
10)Hafiz Bro

17. Who is number 6 having a relationship with?
dunno?

18. Is number 9 a female or male?
Female

19.If number 7 & 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
erm no....dey dunno each other

20. How about number 5 & 8?
NEVER! both are female

21. What's number 2 studying about?
wad the sec 1s study

22.When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
In sch canteen this morning

23.Is number 4 single?
nonono....he has a gf

24.Say something casual about number 1.
Flautist in OPWO

2008-07-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

in my aunt's house now so decided to blog...ok so 2dae was quite fun....went to CR2 for eng n after that went CR3 for MT period....morning nth much happened...was released jus wen de bell rang lol....after MT period straightaway went to music room for music lesson n so i enjoyed 4 periods of air con....den assembly 2dae was fun was released 10 mins early YAYS first time ever...den went to play soccer...didnt go for music theory cuz we had SIBF rehearsal....ok so dat was fun spent 2 hrs in cds rehearsing blue sky wif mr choo aka marcus......den went to de hall for wind blew rehearsal wif mr tan....den at 630 we were released....sent my godbro aka matthew home cuz i staying at his house for 8 days.....so my mum is leaving for hk tmr 10 days of freedom...how much nicer cud it get....ok so 2dae was a little sad....cuz ytd she didnt really reply my msges....mayb she busy or somthing else i dunno....den 2dae band i played a wrong note made me feel alot worse......jus ate dinner lor....den at home cannot blog so now blog luhs.....so have to rush de hist project....was given 2 weeks....last week was NBC week so morning woke up freaking early so oso muz rest mah therfore cant do lor....NBC was on sat den we decide say sunday go jefferson house do de...but jefferson mum went to hospital...so change to monday.....on monday ther was band so change to tuesday....on tuesday jefferson kimyong and derrick chua nv come so again delay but wed got band so thurs left but we this fri muz past up so on de eve do...den thurs i got tuition at 5.....den cant go jefferson house so i do my job and make de pp for jefferson they all to edit lors......english project finish oredi den still hav to worry bout hist project.....omg how many more problems cud come my way......ok so now i typing this long post...obviously....ltr go home again hav to finish de pp...den promised matt to download a song for him "Dancing in the velvet moon"....seems to be a japanese anime song...ok so hav to download for him...den tmr my mum leaving for hk n i go to matt house stay....so muz download 2dae if not tmr he will kill me.....JUZ KIDDING!....lol....so wad else can i post.....nth else....oh ya...english project was fun lars.....Limnic Eruptions....last min go edit cuz jefferson nv come 2dae...in de morning....but he came for band 2dae=.=...lets hope i dun make a single mistake for SIBF for wind blew,blue sky and ave verum.......WISH TO GET A GOLD!...or GWH....at lest once dis yr.....

iloveyou.....

don signing off byes

2008-07-15T12:51:00.000+08:00

ok so0 now in CR4....got de chance to post luhs...ok nth happened ytd onli dat we went to watch de opus vids in AVA room........ok so i went freakishly out of tune in Wind Blew especially during de fanfare part.....wadeva larsss...okok wadeva....teacher allow us to use so i use de chance to post 100% go home cant use le....so last night smsed her lar obviously but she busy lorsss....nvm lar dun care.......okok ending here for ytd...

2dae sad luhss......jeff kimyong and derrick chua nv come so left me n derrick wong larsss.....so i explain to teacher den she say tmr den present lor so i took most of de time to edit de powerpoint lars....ok bb wun hav much tiome to post le cuz 2dae sch end at 1pm....nice lor......haha so im going to go slack ltr hahaha......ok BYE!

2008-07-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

ok so some1 kill me....ytd was nbc....we got a silver but i was dissapointed....i made two major mistakes....hafiz cud hear me means de judges cud hear my mistakes....wth kill me......i hope de band didnt lose 2% of de marks becuz of me....but it was most probably cuz of me....i hv to work even harder for de coming SIBF....i hope we can get a gold dis time.....SIBF is in 2 weeks.....i muz work even harder for wind blew....its de onli chance of getting a gold dis yr...n i seriously dun wan de teachers to say band is a waste of time i wan to make dem speechless...so yea...EVERYONE WORK HARD FOR SIBF OK.....especially thos involved in toccata...we hv lesser time to prepare for wind blew cuz of toccata...JIA YOUS

2008-07-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

ok so to not make my blog dead im gona a short one ....todae went to sch as usual....ok so peck joon came late ok wadeva...on to de next thing.....wth i do eng project slides oredi den jefferson ask me do de hist project one like what the hell.....so after went for slacking den now come home and i post dis lol nth else le

i can onli say a few things.....i admit i sometimes am weird irritating and wadsoever dat u can think of...to all my frens...u onli care about how u guys feel...but u dun even noe how sad it is....u guys wana got to de extreme and find it fun to u but izzit fun for me? u guys wan to be happy....so u mean i dun lar....so pls think of others b4 u do nything.....some of u hv been in my class for more den a yr now yet u still dunnoe my character....especially some1 i dun wana mention...i told u 1001 times but u jus dun care....can u even spare a thought for me...u guys noe i dun people to go to de extreme.....yet u jus dun care n continue......its like mayb u dun like people to touch ur things or wadever but dey still continue.....u ll 100% be fed up....yet u think dat im some1 dat u can do nything on....u guys treat me like ur dog....scolding n bullying wenever u wan....so may i ask WAD IS WRONG WITH U? ok dis few days i hv been freaking pissed and stressed ok.....i dun wana lose my frenship yet u guys wana continue disturbing me as if im ur enemy.....ending my post here

2008-07-10T17:12:00.001+08:00

ok so now at home waiting for tuition teacher to come...ok fine wth todae during pe i wan to slap two people....._ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ _ _ _......freak dem lar hor ok dey nyhow nygow jus pull my pants down...lucky i stop if not sure die de lar.....damn dem lar ok so wadeva la......den ltr in class was very quiet up untill art den i started talking been freaking weird this few days for some apparant reason lar den now cuz i jus finish making the PP presentation i wan to sent to jeff but he not at home so mayb i tmr send lor wad to do ..... my earlier post were emoish i think i dunno some say they were angry lol...den after dat went from bad to ok now back to bad ok fine so i screamed at some people todae those two ^.....sumthin like mood swings i guess they hav been wif me for de past 1 n a half yrs dun tell me u dunno dat i dun like people to play in an extreme manner towards me u guys shud noe ok....i hv been tolerating dis things for far too long...so dun blame me if i jus scream at u for "no reason"...take it as if i lost my mind ok......so todae in class i cudnt concentrate at all totally...was thinking of something n others actually is alot.....but i dun wana say nything lest people get angry or wadsoever...bb i gtg tuition teacher is here

i noe u still like him....u were heart-broken bcuz of him....

2008-07-09T10:46:00.000+08:00

Deh Deh in cr4 now so blogging since the teacher not looking lor ok fine....ok wadeva so now hav to describe some watery cliff thing and sea lor...fine ytd i was emo unstable ok cuz something happened i dun wana say anything bout it k but it was seriously bad....some1 wanted to do something.....silly...... haha ok sibei heng teacher jus watched pass n stop here but she didnt see this lor.... ok so now i continue i stilll in cr4 wadeva lar so now still emo unstable lar ok so 2nite muz talk to " " if not i will lose my mind lor seriously ok...now i slacking lor...

had an uneased time last nite...i think it is becuz of dat i dun noe y but this morning saw her n was relieved...at lest.....but im still emo lar not dat nyone ignore me or nything was something else....stressed out ok .....alot of things went through my mind while i was having rehearsal dis morning lar ok....in was thinking" " lar... ok not saying anymore i hav to stop le bye

dun do it.................

2008-07-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

ok posting on de request of her.... todae did nth in de morning...afternoon went out for lunch ate curry fish head i was like so hungry i didnt eat dinner last nite n i didnt eat breakfast dis morning...had time but didnt wan to eat...b4 lunch i went swimming...ok dun tag me saying u noe how to swim arh cuz i really am gona kill u for dis cept some people...haha im bias and im lovin it ok so....k wadeva so came bck went to use de comp cud use cuz my mum promised me 2 hrs of comp if i swim...den my tuition suppose to be at 530 in de end 4 o clock he come le...he gave me 4 fun size mars bar...lol so during tuition i was tired so he ask me to eat one choc....so finish tuition le den i came to my aunts house ....my mum cooking tempura for de first time wif de correct ingredients...so smsed her n hafiz....yea fyi she replys my sms now...so jus now she ask me to update so now i update lor(: . now waiting for de tempura n dinner hahaha lol.... nyway summary:did nth much todae den now waiting for dinner....simply put... ok nth else for todae le..

pm:thks to u for sms me dat my mood has changed alot...to jefferson too!...well jefferson counsilled me too lots times including in aus....welll THKS ALOT to u two ok(:

2008-07-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

oh lol so she didnt hav her phone lol nvm densss(: lol nowadays my moods changed alot thks to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ and _ _ _ _...(: thks alot to both of u really if not i think i really will jump from de hdb lol haha....hav to do hw maths 5.4 n science wksht on refraction like lol...i dun mind science but maths? omg ms lim gave us like 2 sub chapters of hw for de weekend.i find de one month holiday short but she said LONG weekend to do....todae had band...WAS GLAD dat i cud actually play my toccata parts cept for some...im still rushing my notes arhhh i wan die le but i still muz practice...harder n harder no matter wad happens...so todae during sectional we sent songs here and ther so lol practically onli practiced a little ...welll actually i did follow dem watch de but after dat i tink over my toccata so i practiced a little on toccata...den went for lunch... came back n sectional again dis time mirul n charz watched soccer but b4 dat charlotte slept for half n hour like lol....haha....went back den pack instrument den can leave le so i left wif wei keong .....went through ABC but i didnt buy nything wei kaong bought fnn orange...so continued to de bus stop den came home watched hk drama till somewher jus now den since my mum is out i took de chance to use de com n blogged since i havent blog for quite a while...haha now muz go do hw le bb

To Hafiz:dun be so quiet pls.....its kinda scary

2008-07-03T17:57:00.000+08:00

ok wtf i cant use com but now cuz of eng project i finally can use for once....nyway dis few days nth much happened so even if can post i oso lazy to post.....ytd bcuz of NBC rehearsal so thos sec 2 involved nv go for music theory lesson.....includes me, nadia, derrick, zongting, kent, douglas, kim yong, eugene....no other sec 2s de rest were not involved....so wad dey do?....either sectional wind blew over cherry blossom and march"blue sky". oh well.... dis morning had running for like a long time... ran bout 5-6 rounds......i was not feeling well ok...... vomited once when i came jus b4 we fall in.... halfway through de running i vomited once more but i still continue running....cannot be lazy le muz jian fei haha lol.....after sch at de study area play play den suddenly zong ting grab my hand den swing me....after dat jefferson holed up my leg den douglas go extra den pull my other leg...so how no support...wad else....fall down lor...landed on my head deh...so i angry angry walk off lor den jus now hav tuition chi tuition teacher was funny..... oh ya ytd ms chang talk to me...bout my homework....i got pass up but den mrs cheah say she nv receive....so she go tell ms chang..wad to do?onli can REDO den after sch pass up luh....

dis few days even wen i see her in sch i didnt even say hello or nything....i dun noe y i muz b going out of my mind these days.......i dun even sms her nymore...i dunno y cept ytd wen i sent her a chain sms....was like total ignorance......ok im fine wif dat..........i dun wana see u sad inside.....i will try to stop thinking bout nything.....ms chang told me...she noes bout dis oredi....if i dun buck up i will b kick from band...i dun wana leave band i wana continue......

2008-06-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

todae did nth much......tooo emo do do nything....since i not athome decided to blog somewhere else...at home=no comp no psp no xbox......so wtf lor......morning woke p went for breakfast....ate porridge n raw fish...so nice.....den went to my aunt house n blog for ytd's stuff as can be seen in de earlier post... after dat spent 2 hrs chionging Vampire Knight... watched till epi 7.... went home n watched de hk dramas....exciting to me but for others i dunno le lol......chionged 4 chapters..... took me 2hrs40mins.... i chpt 40 mins mah.....surprisingly i didnt sms nyone....not even her...didnt sms her cuz i noe dat she wudnt reply me nymore...not after wad happened......... den came again to my aunt's house....ate tempura prawns...5 nia for dinner.....den now i watching vampire knighs epi 10 i wan chiong till epi 12 le lo...

ok i admit doing "dat" really wasnt a good idea....for some reason.... alot of people found out....made me feel uneased.....ILY _ _ _ _........

no matter wad happens ill be ther for u always......

2008-06-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

first things first didnt post last night cuz i reached home as in REACH home at bout 1230am n was like so tired drank a bit too like red wine...it was nice but i was limited lol.... so since i didnt post last night im gona post it here...now i mean morning went for band as usual morning 730.... i was not late...... den had to check de section onli me and de two sec 1 de rest all disappear..... dunno wher dey r lol....cold sweat i damn scared my toccata.. heng amirul came jus wen we were going to set up instrument....lol charlotte came later n hui jia last....found out sumtin... monica quit band like wth y she quit...lol... lunch time came had dis bastard ther like wtf..... i swear his gona regret it lar... took my space dat idiot den giv attitude....so i alone...den de sec ones clarinetists n ferline dey all saw me alone eating n ask me y i alone(THIS IS NOT CALLED FLIRT) u say filrt den go chec dictionary den talk.... den dey ask me to squeeze like lol how can de table like full le dey all oredi squeezing ther den dey still wan me squeeze moreover im like " ".....well wadeva....so went back n had sectionals wif peck joon at 330.... b4 dat we slacked n talked.... den amirul wan to watch de soccer match at de sch field lol.....
to Charlotte Wong(not Charlotte Pun for goodness sake) :watch and learn HAHA:)
so fall in at 5+ den we went off .... i went home myself cuz my mum was doing something ElSE n had no time to fetch me like lol..... at home... i on de computer n went to shower...paiseh forgot to say....i saw peck joon at de bus stop like lol...... came out went to de comp n went blogsurfing......tagged people... waited n waited finally my mum came back...so left for de celeb.......dats de end for last night....

personal stuff......u gave me hope i tot u werent gona igonore me nymore.....but suddenly u stopped....even though it was suppose to b a happy day....i was unhappy ok kept thinking of u......

2008-06-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

first of all i wan so say some things to u.....u noe hu u r i dun wana say names k.......sori if i hv been such a perv to u k im jus concerned bout u noe dat k....dun ignore me pls can continue doing dat n soon i will be going out of my mind . if u wan to be such close frens with him or mayb closer go ahead... but dun regret ur choice ....i noe dat u r sad, im too...everyday i hv my good fren jefferson shouting ur name n i hv people coming to me saying u like her arh?.........den i hv people like kiwi n jeff tripping me all de time in sch.....other den dat i hv people like yasser , iskandar , jonathan Lim, n others going around insulting me all the time i hate it ok i can juz blow my top anytime i jus cant take it anymore..... i hv been suffering dis kind of things since p3 im sec 2....5 yrs is a long time...... all i wanted was jus to get along with my frens dats all.....i hav lots of problems racing through my mind as i write dis post....its stressful n i dun wan to think bout anything rite now......i can jus go up a hdb flat n jump off from de roof ok.....dats it for now

todae went for sectional till 3....den went to cds and had rehearsal with marcus...i hope my toccata is fine NBC is on 12/7 .....2 weeks + its not a long time it will be gone in a blink of an eye...
to jefferson:i dun tink dat wad u did was funny ok if u think its funny.....try asking others to bully u u wudnt like it ok....
to hafiz:dun be sad bout ur harddisc failing its ok dun be sad i love u bro
to shuan siak:dun go around n spread other people secrets its not funny ok....to u it may seem fun...but i can tell u dis it can spoil peoples frenship and relationship......

i cant post bcuz im restricted from using the comp at home dats y now im posting at my aunts house.....

tmr ther will b band again n i hope mr tan will not get angry...i really hope my toccata is fine....if i play a wrong note or rythm during de competition..... i hope everything will be fine for this competition... OPWO rocks ok i dun wan to do anything dat will bring de band down.....

i dun wan to post anymore its alot oredi n i dun hv de mood to post i onli posted becuz i didnt wan my blog to go dead bcuz it jus started not long ago jus a day b4 my first post.......

2008-06-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

Finally Posting on this blog and seriously y am i so stubborn?like omt i cant do a shit bout it
nvm i cant post le